"My Life Is In Your Hands"

One of my once favorite songs is now running through my mind and playing on my heartstrings as I once again stare down our budget.  Too much month at the end of the money...

To share more details than I normally would; we are in the process of purchasing a more reliable work truck for my self employed husband, we have a new baby due in late May, I was hospitalized for 10 days in January and off work for 6 weeks due to that illness, what we paid in for taxes is about 2k short, Tuesday our mechanic informed me that my tranny is going, and today I learned I will take a $400/mo pay cut to add baby to our insurance right about the time my hubby called to say a major part of his equipment died.  To say the very least, I am stressed.  I say "I" because one of my hubby's favorite phrase is "we will figure it out."  Though I love him dearly, he is what I like to refer to as the spender.

This evening I pulled into our driveway and the tears started to fall.  Home is typically a place of peace but today I didn't feel peace when I arrived.  As I parked in front of the broken garage door, walked across our deck requiring its twice seasonal paint job, and stared through the slider with the broken blinds, I felt more overwhelmed.

And then a song was laid on my heart.  I don't have it memorized so the only lyrics I know for sure are these - "My life is in your hands...  and though I may not see clearly, Lord I know my life is in your hands."  I don't have the answers and I can't see what the next step here is but I know "I" don't have to figure it out.  My life is in HIS hands.  Please keep us in your prayers as we seek his direction and provision.